He doesn’t fight me or argue and for that I am truly grateful, I just didn’t have the energy to fight right now, sleeping on the boat hadn’t been easy and I felt as though I was carrying the weight of the entire Tribe on my shoulders right now, which really wasn’t helping - it was as though everyone was looking for answers and I just couldn’t reassure them this time, couldn’t tell anyone that we’d be fine, sure we all had each other, but we’d lost our home and that was huge for all of us.
Listening as Lex lowers his voice I felt as though all the wind had been completely knocked out of me, as though my body had slammed into some solid object and was ready to just crumble to the ground, no he couldn’t have just said the words I thought I’d heard, it just couldn’t be true. My grip on his arm tightens as my knees buckle slightly and all I can do is stare at him, as if I was hoping those words hadn’t just left his mouth - no Jay had told me what Deleted meant, I’d said goodbye to Bray, I’d…I’d. Ok I hadn’t accepted that he was gone, but no, this couldn’t be happening, I’d heard Lex wrong hadn’t I?
“Bray.” I murmur after what feels like an eternity of silence “But…it can’t be true, why would you.” I look at him and shake my head “Why didn’t you tell me, why would you keep this from me? From, from all of us?” I ask my voice low yet shaky.